Saturday, September 19, 2009
Today I will spend the day with family and friends for the New Year. I am excited to see them for the first time in my new reality. It's weird because I don't want sympathy I want to feel normal but at the same time I want to scream as loud as I can at the top of a mountain "I have Cancer" help me tell me I will be ok like when I was a little girl and my Mommy or Daddy told me I'll grow up get married have babies and live happily ever after. The problem here is they are saying I will be OK but I'ts just hard to actually believe it now. Remember when Daddy said I was the most beautiful girl in the world and I believed him. I want that back! I am hoping that my newfound faith in god will make me feel that way again and anything is possible, Right? I will be strong. At times though I will need to get up on that mountain and scream what I want to say and then I will say this instead, I will be strong for my family and myself and I will get through this one day at a time god willing!
Posted by Nicole Rowe at 8:41 AM