Crunch time folks. Can't push it away anymore, can't get it out of my mind its like a tidal wave you know is coming but can't run. I am paralyzed with fear and anxiety. I just hope that this truly is the hardest part, the waiting, because if it gets any harder (mentally) I will lose it. I can't wait till I can wake up and its not the first thing on my mind. I want to enjoy a day just because its a beautiful day. I want to look forward to the future not dread it. Well thats it for now no deep thoughts just reality check.